Sukkos I wanted Holepshkes with raisins

    I should have just bought the one holepshke in the kosher food store.  They taste delicious and that would have been that.  I would have had my holepshke.  Instead in a moment of energy I asked my daughter to buy a package of lean chopped meat.  When I saw the size of the family package she bought my energy waned.  I put the package in the refrigerator and thought to myself I can cook it on Yom Tov.  As the time for lighting candles came closer I looked at the package and said to myself, 'well maybe the second days of Succos'     andi  stuffed the raw meat in the freezer.  Last night when I took out the chickens for soup for Hoshana Raba and started looking around for where I can mooch some kreplach - another long winded cooking process- I spied the meat package and said "Ok tomorrow is the day."   I jumped out of bed in the morning and made the over sized pot of chicken soup in my night clothes after I bentched Lulav and esrog.  I, of course, over estimated the amount of soup in the rushed cooking with my daughters for the feeding of four families with my single daughters egging me on by asking several times, "is there enough food??"  And over estimated my energy level.  By the time the soup and several other items were bubbling away I looked at the chopped meat though "Oh no!"   I realized I needed eggs and a can opener.  My daughter drove to get one as I had never replaced the one I threw out.  I did not find  the one that I fancied yet.   I figured wrongly if  I threw out  the old one it   would motivate me to buy a new one. I made the mixture, took out the cabbage from the freezer and made cabbage rolls until the sauce in the pot overflowed and I needed another pot for all the leftover meat.  I  filled the 2nd pot with sweet and sour meatballs (I finished the cabbage) AFTER I hand. picked out all the raisins  I DID enjoy the cabbage roll.  so did 1 of my sons and 1 guest of ours.  As for the rest the words RAISIN  and CABBAGE just did not entice them.  So I had the chance to relive the childhood memory of eating and slurping delicious sweet cabbage rolls with raisins  in the rainy cold sukkah in Montreal and  with all the rainstorms we have had here in South Florida in the last few days i ate with raindrops sliding down my back and bottom slightly damp.  And i will be able to relive this memory again and again in the next few days because I have two pot fulls of leftover.  No one wanted to take home.  I should have just bought the one cabbage roll.....   

Finding love when I wasn't expecting it but needed it.

What a lovely afternoon. It was spontaneous. I had called my sister-in-law and asked could I come over now. I came over and she washed, blow-dried and played with my 'sheitel' until I looked my best.  I enjoyed the attention. I felt the love.
Decisions decisions. Should we go out to eat?  Where should we go?  At the end she made egg white omelets with spinach and tomatoes. It was delicious, healthy, permitted on my diet and a big shot of energy. Enough energy that I was able to talk for an hour straight to her about my floating thoughts and random musings.
To top it off she encouraged me to put all these thoughts in writing and created this blog page for me.  And while I wrote this she put a plate of luscious cut up plum at my side. Thank you Faygie  for your time and patience   After all the energy I put out to my husband , children , mother, community, and everywhere You unexpectedly filled me up in this drop in visit.